arugh.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
with ♥ 3:00 PM
why is it raining?!??! D: i need to go tuition. sighs. always like that one leh. >:\ sigh.
nowadays quite boring. bmt is like so annoying. really hate it i cant wait t step down i need a proper break. always do hw then no strength to study etc le. grrr. sigh. at least me and buddies in bmt gg for good jap food in restaurant on tue after watching guys play. okay i think rainy days make me very sian. nowadays i think
j2 alrdy taking a toll on everyone. everyone also :( or moody. smtimes i really dunno if i should have children next time. i really love children, i'd love to have my own, but to put them through all the shit i went through? :\ idk. next time wil be even more competitive. look at the society now its alrdy so grade-based. i just heard alot stuff nowadays and im very disheartened. we're just getting further and further from achieving an utopian society.
as i grow up i realise alot of things have changed. its quite scary t grow up when i think of it; the perception of the world changes, and relationships with people are kinda altered as well. selfish? greed? oblivious? ignorance? maybe. idk. its not a matter of whether i want to grow up or not, whether i can go back to who i used to be; im forced to in this society. everyone tend to only think for themselves. sometimes i feel tired, drained, from all the giving and not taking. yeah lecture me about how giving is the gift of joy crap. wake up to reality cos it doesnt really work that way anymore. those are just gullible ppl getting taken advantage of. or lets just say in the past, people were very different to this material world of ours. :( sigh ok i guess ive just learnt my lessons and learnt to guard myself. im tired of giving unconditionally to people who dont deserve it.
ok i sound really emo. on a lighter note, im very :) cos alrdy quite a few ppl to date said im v good at sales and stuff. :) probably one of the only skills im v good at. but it kinda hurt a little too cos
my arty-farty brain cells refuse to be good at math and econ, and i cant go business in uni. which kinda suck; my
17 year dream of following my daddy's footsteps and be a RM in a bank kinda went down the drain. sigh. okay well ive learnt to accept it. dont get me wrong; i love teaching too and im nt regretting my decision to work toward NIE. but it just kinda hard t accept the fact that i know i'll be good at a job but cant do it cos of education system. here we go again.
okay anyway. i felt damn fulfilled and happy by yst
volunteer work at SBF [Singapore Buddhist Federation] fair in celebrating vesak. got to interact with alot of people, and children. same thing all over again i guess; some ppl are just damn hostile: and why am i not surprised these bunch are mostly Singaporeans. :\ yeah but im damn tired, dont have enough sleep, but its all worth it. :) cant wait for the volunteer work on vesak at KMS. :) should be fun and have that sense of accomplishment agn!
and baby's last paper tmr. :D must jiayou okay baby? im sure you can do it. :)
i love you. :)-jinghui-
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